I almost died because of this before, have passed out, and almost went to the ICU. I was then still accused and charted as a drug abuser (all very incorrect facts) on top of the severe trauma it has been to go through all of this. My Dad carried me into the hospital several months ago completely limp and unresponsive, my Mom was with me another time that 911 was called and said my lips were turning blue, and my close friend has spent countless hours with me the whole time I have had these seizures, including going in and out of consciousness again. I have had painful ruptured blood vessels with bleeding on my fingers after the longest ones and I passed out with my body collapsing at the top of a staircase and almost had another staircase fall with another seizure. These are only part of 2 out of 8+ major physical conditions and 11+ total conditions I deal with every day and every night.
Do you know that I am someone who would rather die, literally, before I ever faked or lied about something? That is how honest I am as a person.
I also had another ambulance trip and another traumatic medical experience recently.
Another guy also called me demanding things even though I said I was going to sleep with pain, and now I had to get rid of him and make my social media private to protect myself. (Thankfully I had my main guys: Dad, brothers, and friend already offer to get physical with these jerks if they have to for me)...
I broke down shaking and sobbing longer and harder than I have in months: Everything is too much right now, so I am pulling back and relying on my close safe people.
My mental health is already down, so I will be taking a break.
- RKD
03-15-25