RKD: MY LIFE LETTER
I AM WRITING THIS DURING ANOTHER NIGHT OF INSOMNIA AND PAIN. I AM GRIEVING MORE THAN ANYONE KNOWS RIGHT NOW AND WANTED TO SIMPLY WRITE THIS AS WELL.
I AM NOT SURE WHEN THE TIME WILL BE. I MAY HAVE A LOT MORE TIME ON THIS EARTH OR I MAY NOT. EITHER WAY, HERE IT IS.
EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE A BLUR. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN A SHORT TIME OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS. BETWEEN SO MANY AMBULANCE AND HOSPITAL TRIPS, TESTS, SCANS, DIAGNOSIS, UNBELIEVABLE PAIN, MANY PEOPLE LEAVING OR PASSING, AND ALSO JUST A FEW SWEET ONES STAYING. NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE I AM GRATEFUL FOR IT ALL.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE ANGELS IN THE STRANGERS WHO I NEVER GOT TO REALLY KNOW OR SEE OR THANK, MY FAMILY, AND FRIENDS.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR ANY SINGLE SECOND OF RELIEF, SMILES, LAUGHS, HUGS, AND KISSES OR SNUGGLES WITH MY PUP.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR EVERY SINGLE ORGANIZATION THAT ACCEPTED ME, MY WORK, AND THOSE PARTNERSHIPS BUILT FROM EVERY SINGLE HEARTBEAT AND FIGHT IN ME.
I AM GRATEFUL THAT EVEN THOUGH I NEVER GOT TO COMPLETE MY DREAM OF BEING A FIRST RESPONDER I WAS ABLE TO TRY TO SUPPORT OTHERS AS MUCH AS I COULD.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR EVERY VERSION OF MYSELF THAT BROUGHT ME THROUGH AND MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR ANY KEPT OR REGAINED FUNCTION AND ABILITY IN MY BODY DESPITE MY DISEASE PROGRESSING AND TERRIFYING ME.
I AM GRATEFUL TO MY SAVIOR FOR THE HOPE OF ETERNITY, WITH NO MORE SUFFERING, PAIN, GRIEF, AND ESPECIALLY NO MORE EVIL OR HATRED.
I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE DREAMS AND HOPES I STILL AM FIGHTING TO KEEP EVEN IF THEY ARE BURIED SO DEEP WITHIN ME.
WITH ALL MY LOVE AND STRENGTH,
- RKD
09-10-26