- RKD
02-27-25
PTSD: THE WORST IT HAS EVER BEEN
The light fades in evening as I taste blood in my mouth and feel tears dried on my eyes. After no sleep and a long night with PTSD, I made it through another day, but heard sirens several times again loud and clear, probably the same ones that took me a few days ago. I started sobbing and wanting to die. So much happened that has made this last one the most triggering thing for me in almost ten years after all else I have been through, for reasons I still cannot talk about but has to do with my most severe medical trauma over the years. Right after crying, I had another nosebleed on the bathroom floor with a seizure. I am relapsing hard with something that has not happened in many years again, but despite all my work, it seems like nothing is going well anymore. I try but still cannot shake the memories and feelings that are suffocating. It is all too much.